Saturday, June 04, 2011 @ 3:34 AM
You're right
I need to have some backbone.. U are so right..

It hurts eveytime i found out tat u actually lied to me.. i really dun understand why u can promise me in front of my face tat u wun do a certain thing.. and there u go.. behind my back doing those things tat u promised not to do.. and when i found out u blamed me for intruding your privacy.. and u started scolding me all those f words. cb words and whats not.. shldnt i be the one being angry and pissed off? but how come its the other way round? you lied and u scolded me with those hurtful words?

Found out one more thing.. there is something in the past tat u kept it from me.. and i tot we were to share everything.. and when i asked u say u cant tell me.. i hate the feeling of u not being able to trust me.. its not like i will spread it ard.. i merely wish to know more abt my own girlfriend..

I shld really stop being like everything also think abt u.. today i sold a spoilt handphone off.. and even when i am super broke and with tat little money i've got i helped u top-up ur ezlink card and pay for ur meals.. if not u wun be able to travel and u will starve.. since day 1 i helped u so much paying for ur travel expenses. until the point where when i wan a book or a pouch i have to think and considered so hard and so many days and end up not buying.. but when u wan ice cream or watever craving i can just without thinking sometimes just buy for u.. why? cause i love u and i wanna see u being happy.. but i guess i really spoilt u.. when u got ur pay.. i asked if u could help me top up my card when i have no money.. u gave me tat 'huh.. my pay not say alot leh..' but yet.. u ended up buying so many nails polishes...

Jon.. wake up please...

I cant help but to cry sometimes late at night.. all alone.. while u dun wan to settle things and asked me to fuck off..

I really need to wake up...

And i've really lost a best friend.. now being blocked off everything.. facebook, msn, blog, twitter..
i wun even dare to face u anymore and i wun even dare to confide in u anymore if the worse happens... i wun even dare to go find u.. i know i've let u down once again.. all too many times......
if the worse happens.. all i have is...

Myself..

And I deserve it..